BIG GIRL TIME

This is my first Valentine’s Day single in three years, and honestly, that sentence alone feels wild to type.

Not because I’m heartbroken anymore, but because I’ve changed.

When my relationship ended, I was really sad. Like really sad. I felt like I failed at something I poured so much love, effort, and hope into. I questioned myself more than I’d like to admit. I kept replaying moments in my head, wondering what I could’ve done differently, what I missed, what I lost.

There’s no bad blood between my ex and me, we still talk, and there’s genuine care there, but this Valentine’s Day isn’t about revisiting the past. It’s about honoring how far I’ve come.

And giving God His credit.

I never doubted that God loved me, but if I’m being honest, I wasn’t acting like I believed it. I was clinging to something so tightly that I forgot who was actually holding me. And when that relationship ended, God picked me up in a way that was gentle but firm. He reminded me that His love isn’t conditional, isn’t fragile, and isn’t something I have to earn by “getting it right.”

That realization didn’t happen overnight. Healing didn’t look aesthetic or inspirational all the time. It looked like sitting in my feelings, crying, praying when I didn’t have the words, and learning how to stand again, slowly.

Now, I finally feel like my feet are on the ground.

This Valentine’s Day, I’m not rushing. I’m not over-scheduling. I’m not trying to distract myself. I’m choosing to relax, reflect, and celebrate me, my beauty, my intelligence, my softness, my strength. All of it.

I’m appreciating the woman I’m becoming and trusting the path God is leading me down, even when I can’t see the full picture yet. Especially then.

And yes, I have a vacation coming up (because of course I do), but this Valentine’s Day is about being present right where I am. Enjoying the quiet confidence that comes from knowing I’m loved, covered, and growing.

This year, Valentine’s Day isn’t about being chosen by someone else.

It’s about choosing myself.
And choosing God, again.

If you are in the midst of the change in seasons, where you may not feel as broken, and you have the pieces in hand but now it is time to put them back together, let me encourage you. You do not have to figure out the puzzle alone. God is with you for every piece. He know that you were not given the finished picture, that is why we have to trust in him because he know what it should look like. So take those pieces and try your best! You are doing great!

I love you all and TTYL!