BIG GIRL TIME

Ohhhh relationships!! What a wonderful thing!! Guys I am in a great relationship! We have been together for 1 1/2 years and I can honestly say that it has been such an amazing experince and has brought me so much joy. Uh oh here come the water works!! But seriously things I used to dream about, I am able to experience daily. My boyfriend is amazing and I am truly so blessed to have someone in my life as smart, kind, honest, and loving as he is.

BUT LET ME TELLLLLLLLL YOUUUUUUU. It ain’t all fun and games! I have had to really become a big girl with this one folks. Being in a relationship like this means that you have to be vulnerable, with yourself and with him or her. It means that you have to open up that can of worms you swore to never touch again.

My boyfriend has prompted me to come face to face with traumas and triggers I did not know I even had. We argue, we do not always get along, but we love each other. I truly believe that God brought my boyfriend into my life and I am so happy to call him mine.

If I have to give you one word of advice, it would be to work on yourself… There was a period of time when I wanted to be in a relationship so badddd. I dreamt about it, I day dreamed about it, I was infatuated by the idea of it. But God pretty much kept me out of relationships completely. During this journey, I realized it was not just the idea of a relationship that I wanted but the idea of someone needing me like I have needed other people in my life. I realized that this was an unhealthy way of thinking and if I was allowed to get into a relationship too early I would have not actually loved the person but just the idea of having a person there.

Your story may be different than mine, but we all have things to work on. Get in the bible, grow closer with God, grow and nourish your friendships and I believe that if it is in Gods plan he will bring you love when you least expect it.

Love you guys, thank you for reading. TTYL